| Settle for Less |
[02 Mar 2004|10:23pm] |
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Not much has happened in my life. Went to school. Learned stuff. Today my Drama class went to the old school and read to the children. It was fun. We passed out bookmarks with our favorite books and I put Perks of Being a Wallflower on mine. Twas fun. I'm slowly (at least in my head) becoming friends with Bethany. Yesterday Holly and I took Highway 27 to go home and Bethany was across from Ricky Newport's (Gas Station) trying to get onto Pettit Lane (like us) and she tried to get in front of me but I wouldn't let her so we started beeping our horns at each other and cussing each other out (our windows were down) and it was so funny. She said I was crazy for going 70 on The Lane. Then today we cussed each other out again because she got in front of me at the tray thing and it was funny. Then on the bus to the old school we talked about how I was speeding on The Lane and when we got back I jumped at her and we fought in the hall. I don't know. I mean come on I'm gayer then gay but for some reason I just want to make out with Bethany and be her boyfriend, and I have no clue why. Makes no sense whatever so ever. Maybe I'm straight-curious. lol. I have a Creative Writing project due tomorrow. I should really start on that but I don't really want too. I just want to stay up all night, get up late, and cruise with my friends. High School Sucks. Well at least right now. I wish it would stop raining. Its raining non-stop and its starting to piss me off.
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| Today |
[27 Feb 2004|10:41pm] |
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So we had school. We shouldn't have but we did. Almost no one showed up. Complete waste of time. First block... ummmmm we did nothing. we sat there and talked. second... of course she made us do stuff. third did nothing but listen to Ginger's love CD and then listened to the Grease Soundtrack and Beach Boys and Alice Cooper. Josh and Bethany started doing the dances from Grease. Very odd. Fourth did like ten problems then played games.
I'm so head over heels for Jonathan that its not even funny anymore. I want his body so bad.
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| the little voice in my head... |
[26 Feb 2004|08:29pm] |
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So... school was cancelled today. freak blizzard or something. i stayed in. played games. then got on here. and made a new layout. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) romantic_whore see. Bridget, Krista, and I were snapping at each other yesterday. we all got our feelings hurt and its making things suck. Krista don't like Jonathan because everyone likes him. wtf? whatever. If she don't like him then why does she keep talking to him? i mean i don't like her friend Josh so i dont' talk to him. simple enough right?
( whatever )
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| Schools Out for summer CHRISTMAS!!!! |
[18 Dec 2003|04:55pm] |
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Talk about fucking bored off your ass. Today was so fucking boring. Woke up this morning with Snow on the ground. but they didn't cancel school. bastards. So we get to school and the radio is all like "Its going to snow three inches by noon" Get to school. Find out that they are making us take 1st block exams today instead of the half a day tomorrow. No big. Gilbert hadn't made up a final exam so he made an eassy question as our exam. I think I passed it. The chem test was so fucking easy though. I got an automatic 70 for just doing the study guide and lab so it really don't matter what i made on the acutal test part. Third block we had a party and watched "8 seconds" stupid movie about the rodeo. Lunch was fun though. It was our last lunch and Freddy, Josh, and Cythia came and ate with us. They usually have first lunch but they blew off their blocks to come eat with us for a little while. We were talking about boxers and peeing in the shower lol. We were making fun of that Joe Boxer commercial "Jenny got her boxers on" you know. Well Krista saw my Joe Boxers and she goes "Mikey got his boxers on" and then Cody goes "I got my tightie whiteies on" and we all screamed. lmao. We were all like "UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" and EVERYONE in the caf got uber quiet and turned and looked at us like "wtf?" It was so funny. So we were all uber hyper after that and when we went back to third it was uber duber uber boring so Sam and I asked if we could roam around the school. Ms. Taylor gave us some errands to do. We had to carry books on a dolly. It was funny. So then Break came and we went to the gym lobby. Krista went on to German to study for her final and Sam and I went to the gym lobby. We got in there and her and I started dancing but it wasn't dancing it was mainly jumping 5 feet in the air while hugging and running. lol. I pushed Rachel down on the ground. It was so sick I just barely pushed her and she went flying into the ground. Jared raped me behind the coke machien for it. During break I made Sam and Jonathan my bitches. Fourth block was eh. lol. Got done with my final in like five minutes and then we just sat around and played PS2 and talked. I think we were embarrassing Mr. Jones because Paula, Megan, Wendy, and I were all sitting there talking about sex and how everyone in town is cheating. It was funny. And that was my day. I got MSI's cd last night and Bridget got me a Justin Timberlake poster. I'm going to hang it up in my closet super secret agent style. Its a great poster and to describe it I'm going to use Krista's quote "There is so grabage in the pantage!" lol. Bridget also got me a hampster and a shirt and Krista got me a AFI shirt and a AFI poster and a "I know Kung Fu" shirt.
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| Fucking Bored Mother Fucker |
[15 Dec 2003|09:30pm] |
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Mother fucking shit hole butt mud. lmao. I'm so fucking bored that its not even funny anymore. fuck. lol. I'm watching Blink 182: Riding in Vans with Boys. Its pretty cool. Makes me want to be in a band. All kinds of guy touchage. lol. Tom is sneaking around in the crowd and no one thinks its him. Its so funny. Anyway updates in real life. Well Krista and I are on a mission to find every gay guy in our school. I'm secretly hoping that one of them will be hot. So far we've only found two. The sometimes annoying Josh and Matt J. We all kind of knew about both of them but I found out about Matt by stumbling across it on the faceparty.com and Josh told Krista he was bi. Lie. He gay. I can tell cause he is doing everythign I used to do. I've stopped acting uber straight, but its still straightness happening to throw people off. lol. I wont' be on at all the rest of this week. I have a Serive Leadership final Wednesday. My Chemistry and U.S. History finals are Thursday. And the mother fuckers are making us come the half a day Friday to make us take our 1st block final which for is Advanced English III. Gilber is going to be a fucker about it I can feel it. I think I can pass the Chemistry one. If I come up with a great cheating plan. lol. Besides that not much else is going on. I drove on the Interstate which I LOVE DOING NOW!!!!! The interstate is my kind of place. I'm hoping by summer I can convince mom to let me go to a show OUT OF STATE. I so want to go to a show with Heather, Kelly, and Margo. But I'm the sheltered one. lol. I'm being uber nerd tomorrow. At midnight Krista and I (and maybe Bridget) are going to go see LOTR: The Return of the King. Like I said uber nerds. lol. Well I guess thats everything for right now.
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| Its a Nice Day for a White Wedding |
[13 Nov 2003|04:16pm] |
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Been awhile since I wrote in here. I've mainly been writing in my greatestjournal. Actually its been awhile since I've wrote in there too. Anyway not much has happened I guess. Been busy. Very busy. Prom Court met yesterday. Our fucking prom is at the fucking school in the caf. <--So Pissed--> I'm not even going to prom now. I'll show up for court meetings and vote on shit but on the day of prom I'm taking off to Gatlinburg like everyone else is doing. Shit. All the seniors are pissed at us. Oh fucking well. I'm in kind of a pissy mood right now. Mainly cause of these two fuckers in my fourth block. Wendy R. and Mark R. fuckers. They were sitting next to Paula and me at the computers and would not shut up. They were talking about stupid shit like George Bush being sexy (her) and his dick size (him) and stupid third grader shit. Paula and I were getting headaches then the bitch started laughing. The MOST ANNOYING LAUGH EVER!!!
me: "WILL YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP?! DO YOU REALIZE HOW FUCKING ANNOYING YOUR FUCKING VOICE IS?! GROW THE FUCK UP!"
The only person to say anything was Mr. Jones (mmmmm) and he was like "Hey. Calm down." and that was it. lol. Everyone got real quiet. It was funny as fuck. Well I'm off I guess. My head still hurts.
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| Fall Break |
[24 Oct 2003|11:44am] |
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Its Fall Break time in Mikeytown. lol. I have today, the weekend, and Monday off and they are calling it fall break or something. I had to work the football game last night. We ran out of supplies before the game started so Krista and I decided to go to the Sunbright game. All of our friends were there and they were being jackasses. They can all go to hell for all I care. Anyway we went back to the Wartburg game and yeah Krista's mom was there and I think she is in trouble. Not too sure yet though. I just got up about a hour ago. I slept for 12 hours. It was great. I had some fucked up dreams though. I gave up caffine. Not completely yet but close. I'm drinking a Mountain Dew right now and its going to be my only one for the day. lol. Well I'm off. I got nothing to do so I guess I'm going to stare at this screen for the rest of the day. lol.
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| And I Find Myself Wanting It All Back.. |
[16 Oct 2003|07:37pm] |
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And my world comes crashing down.
Life sucks. I'm fighting with Tabby. I'm fighting with Derek (again). And the one that pains me most... I'm fighting with Bridget. Derek and me always fight no biggie there, Tabby though... complicated. But I hate when I fight with Bridget. She is the one person (IRL that is) that knows me best. She got in a fight with Cylde last night. Our mood reflected this all day and I tried to ignore it. Krista is having a Halloween Party and she put Bridget and I in charge of the guest list. Well Krista and I wanted to invite Sam, Dave, and Brittany cause they eat with us at lunch and we like them all but the second Krista told Bridget this she flies off like a crazy woman screaming about how Sam and Brittany are sluts and that Dave is a fucking faggot. As you can tell rage filled every part of my body when Krista told me this. BUT i didn't say anything because she was having a bad day and I have had those... but she wouldn't shut up and I blew up at her at break and she made feel stupid. She just stood there and goes "you are a fucking fool for get mad. Why are you yelling? You are a fool." She left and I walked off by myself in tears. I'm still not good at expressing anger to those I love. Sam kind of knew I was crying... but she didn't say nothing. I'm going to tell Krista to cancel the party. and blame it on Derek and Bridget... she is already thinking about it so I'll just agree with her. I can't stand another year and a half. I want to be out of here so much now. I just wish someone was on to talk to.
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| Best Night of My Life |
[10 Oct 2003|10:35pm] |
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Oh My Gilbert! Tonight's football game was so much fucking fun. Which if you know me I never watch the football game. People ask me the score of the game and i go "WHAT GAME?!" but anyway. Matt Jeffers. Gay vibe. Extremely. In other news Krista had her camera and Oh My Gilbert. We were CIA agents. We were ducking behind fences, bushes, the old stands, and just anything. It was so fucking funny. Jon Jon (11 year old) jumped me and fought me for the longest time. It was so funny. lol. I mooned everyone and Krista got a picture of my ass. lmao. I have never had so much fun. Then game is over. We are showing everyone the picture of my ass. lol. Then we go crusin town. Trying to find the projects wayne is always talking about. omg we about died. we went down the wrong road and it was a dead end and i tried to turn and there was a huge ditch omg so funny. we finally found "the projects" and lmao. omg AND THEN omg i always secretly race people but people never know we are racing so I always when and i tried that tonight and someone actually RACED ME AND OMG IT WAS SO MUCH FUCKING FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 LMAO!!!!!!!!
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| And Here I Stand Alone |
[07 Oct 2003|05:16pm] |
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I've been in a creative wonderland lately. I've been writing in my small journal or I'm just writing meaningless stories in Chemistry about how I hate the teacher. lol. Its been great. Its Spirit Week. Oh yay. Yesterday was PJ Day. I wore my PJs. oh yeah. Today was Camo Day. I didn't dress up. Tomorrow is Mix Match Day and the powderpuff football game. We so didn't have Chem. today cause we brougt in SOOOOOOO many pennies. NO ONE wanted to have class. lol. I think I'm going to start my epic tale of dragons, wizards, hackers, stellar empires, love, betrayal, revelation, and coming of age story. lol. I've had this idea in my head for a long time about a story... its based on the Lofters. Its been a good way to see how I was feeling at the time and that I still have some trust issues. I think I'm going to start writing it in my new hidden journal. I might type it into word oneday. I don't know. We read this GREAT poem today in Adv. English. I type it out later because I do not have my notebook with me. I had an Anchor Club meeting after school. Nothing new really but when we start have the counsils meeting I'm ging to go for cheif chair of the Public Relations Council. Its going to be fun. lol. Well thats about it.
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| I Puked on the Interstate |
[03 Oct 2003|04:21pm] |
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I has so much fun yesterday in Nashville even though I puked... twice. lol. First time was okay. We got pulled over to the side of the road in time. Second time, however, lol... we were in the middle of the interstate DURING construction and there was NOWHERE to pull over too and I had to puke out of the window and the old lady behind us had to put on her windsheild wipers. lmao. omg it was so funny.
The workshop was fun. The speaker was an ex-NFL football player. He was cool and funny... for a football player that is. lol. There was these 2 EXTREMELY HOT GUYS. omg orgasmic pleasure. lol. The whole workshop has changed the way I look at things now. As much as I preach about indivdualism and I am no where near where I want to be as a person. I am shallow. And I don't want that. I want to be the best I can be... I don't want my friends to drag me down... the way they have almost done countless times before. We had to make a list of people who has said stuff that has profoundly touched me... I put: Mom, Dad, Curtiss, Ninny, Papaw, Eli, Drake, Melinda, Seirra, Katie, aunts, and uncles. I then made another section for famous people that has said stuff that effected me: James Marsters, Wil Wheaton, Good Charlotte, Dashboard Confessional, Savage Garden, Blink 182. Then I made a section of friends. I divided it into two sections. The first Bridget and Krista... the second all the lofters and I mean ALL: Kelz, Kelly, Margo, Caitlin, Heathy, Jay, Cori, Luke, Brandon, Val, Jamie (RIP), Rain, Tomas, Kat, Emily, Dustin, and even Korri. No matter what... all your words live within me. Even though Dustin was Korri and it was a big lie those words weren't... and I will foreverly treasure Korri for it even though I cannot truely forgive her but for me to get over it I have to forgive her but I don't think I'm mature enough yet or maybe the pain is still too great for me too... whatever all i know is I love Korri even though the pain is still great and you its okay to not like someone and still love them and thats what I love about life. Jay... He will never be apart of my life again and thats for the best because there is lies there... I feel those lies... and I don't want those lies to tear me apart and even though I know that... and even though he said so hurtful things to me I can never hate him... I love Jay with all my heart... and always will. Meeting Jay and him coming out and telling us he was gay has helped me be okay with my sexuality and realize its okay to be gay. Thanks to Jay first saying those words about one year ago from today still echoes in my life... With him saying that it became okay in our group and we opened up and became closer because of it and with the help of Kelly and Heathy and Margo and Kelz and Jamie and Dustin and Tomas and Rain and countless other people I was able to come out and tell Krista and Bridget what I told them today. I told Krista in first block in a note when everyone was screaming and Krista and me pulled Bridget aside at break and it felt so good to utter these words, "Bridget, I told Krista this morning and I wanted to tell you guys at the same time but oh well. I'm gay. I'm gay." and it felt so good. Bridget knew I was going to say it. She even told me she knew but I didn't care because now I KNOW i can say it and how good it feels to say it. I'M GAY!!!! I'm gay...
And in this moment I'm happy...
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| My Teacher is Going to See Perfect Circle |
[28 Sep 2003|05:57pm] |
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Alyssa (my Service Leadership and Anchor Club teacher) won tickets to go see Perfect Circle. I'm not understanding the mass fandom of Perfect Circle. I mean the fandom around them is reminding me of the fandom that Good Charlotte experienced about one year ago. Sad really. I dont' think they are that great anyway. They are good but you know not at the level of greatness they are currently experiencing. lol. I'm all brainy mood.
I went walking for Alzheimer's today. My team raised like over nine hundred dollars. Yay us. Jillian, Lydia, Tabby, and me were the leaders of most of the race. Then Erin caught up with us and passed us but Jillian and me passed her and won the race even though we weren't really racing we were in our heads. lol. Krista is pissed at me or something. "I left her behind" I can understand where she is coming from me being there more then 40 times myself but I didn't do it on purpose.
My head still kind of hurts from Friday. Don't ever build your own house. So not worth it. Well I have to be in bed at like ten or elevan tonight so I'm going to be reading James Marsters Slash and buffy related stuff. lol. Yes I'm a pervert.
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| My Day |
[26 Sep 2003|10:09pm] |
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^ Helped built a house
^ Finished MOST of my History Project
^ Got some new pillows
- Allergies
- Had to go for most of fourth block
Some many funny things happened today. It was so hurt. Word of advice. Don't build your own house and don't join Americore.
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| "Oh We Miss You..." |
[25 Sep 2003|11:26pm] |
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yeah... whatever.
*&^-------------------------------------------*%#
+ I help build a house tomorrow
+ I get to miss Chem.
- I have to spend my day with freshman
- I feel unwanted, unneeded, unloved, and unneccsary.
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| If they only knew... |
[22 Sep 2003|10:30pm] |
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the fucking green camo shit on this LJ is getting so fucking old. I'm going to change it one day soon... hopefully. Anyway updates in my life: I'm treasurer in Anchor Club and during the next meeting I'm going to run for some Director spots so I can be in charge of projects, ummm I got the cops called on me at the middle school. (lol) Its really stupid. We were at the middle school skateboarding and Jimmy, Jared, and Jonathan (-sucks his dick right off- mmmmmm) ANYWAY and they all grabbed a hold of the back of my car and I drove around the parking lot with them like that and we got the cops called on us. lol. Tabby just told me Rachel likes me... -sigh- The good side of this I can use her to make people think I'm straight but i would have to USE her and hurt her in the end. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with it like all the others. Mr. JOnes.... mmmmm.... nothing has changed there. lol. I'm still waiting for him to walk in one day strip my clothes off and make hot passionate sex to me on top of the tables in his room. I'm a lil horny now. lol. Okay alot horny. I get to put siding on a house Friday. I get out of school all day to do it too. How great is that? We got out early today because the fucking town flooded. Usually I joke about the town flooding when we get out of school for rain but today it was for serious. The road in front of the high school was shut down for 2 hours and when everything got calmed down and it was barely raining and all the water was done draining they cancel school. I'm not complaining but it just doesn't make sense. lol. We get to wear big giant orange labels during lunch and fourth block tomorrow. lol. I'm secretly hoping to get "prep", "teacher's pet" (which i am lol), or "satanist". lmao. I secretly want prep more. lol. Thats sick and twisted of me. lol. Oh and ALL BUFFY FANS GO OUT AND RENT (OR BUY) BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER 2: CHAOS BLEEDS FOR PS2!!!!!!!
P.S. I'm going to try and be on tomorrow night (9-23-03) so I might get to talk to some of you then.
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| Bye Bye |
[20 Sep 2003|01:51pm] |
[AIM PROFILE]Over the course of my life I've been the life of the party, the depressed kid thinking of killing himself. Over the course of my life I have seen so many highs and even more lows. Over the course of my life I've been loved, betrayed, and hated. Over the course of my life I've kept secrets that could tear my friendships apart. Over the course of my life I've wished for it all to end and for feeling to just disappear. Over the course of my life I've made great friends that have foreverly changed my life... and I'm slowly losing those people. Over the course of my life I've felt like the outsider and in the end I will be only.[/AIM PROFILE]
I miss Kelz, Margo, Heathy, Kelly, Caitlin, Luke, Val, Jay, Goddamn, Dustin, Mellie, Rain, Tomas, Cait, Tim, and even Korri.
I miss you all...
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| Wow. New Look. |
[05 Sep 2003|11:07pm] |
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School Fucking Rules! lol. sometimes that is. So I came in this morning and Tanna and I got there at the same time as Derek (ugh) and Amanda (I like Amanda but she steals), anyway Derek has been talking about me to EVERYONE. I hate him. I've never liked him but I've never done shit to him. Apparently his problem with me is I'm "not serious enough" oh fucking well ANYWAY my point, we got there at the same time and he goes "Hey Michael I got Bridget some fucking awesome pics!" ..... "I don't fucking care Derek because I dont' usually talk to people who talk shit about me!" and after saying that I walked into Gilbert's room and sat my stuff down and then went to talk to Mrs. Foster cause she always listens to me bitch about people. lol. The rest of the day was super fucking good. BREAK IT DOWN!
First Block: Did our word for the day and then Gilbert split us into groups and we played a game with buzzers and everything. It was so fun. Thats all we did for a hour and then he gave us like 15 minutes free time.
Secound Block: I swear as much as I hate Hennagar I love him because he NEVER wants to teach us anything. Yesterday he wouldn't shut up about airplanes. lol. What the fuck the flying formations of military aircrafts has to do with Chemistry I DO NOT KNOW and frankly dont' care. lol. We talked him into playing the same game we played in first block and he went and got the buzzers from Gilbert and thats all we did the whole hour and a half. lol.
Third Block: First half hour we had guest speakers and we interviewed them and then went back to the class and listened to answer questions for 15 minutes, then the bell for lunch rang and Ms. Taylor sent Sam (cool chick), Jillian, Krista, and me out front to get the pizzas, shakes, burgers, and peppers. We had a big party for being so good. We watched Happy Gilmore and pigged out. lol.
Fourth Block: I swear the only class I had to do anything in. The SEXY Mr. Jones had some notes for us to take and we reviewed for our quiz and then took the notes from yesterday and then took the quiz and didn't have to do anything else like always. lol.
I love school because I never get to do anything in my classes. lol. I just wish that Krista, Bridget, and Jonathan were in my fourth block. Fourth is the only class I dont' have with Krista. lol.
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| I Will Never Fuck You |
[03 Sep 2003|05:14pm] |
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School drama to the fucking extreme. No not really. Seems like it sometimes though. Sad really. lol. Anyway not much has been happening. I had to pull an all nighter Monday night to finish my English Paper and my Service Leadership paper. I lost my service leadership paper but I got an extension and I turned it in today.
Everyone is ganging up on Paxton. Sure I don't like the girl but she thinks I'm her friend and I'm starting to feel bad for not really being her friend but she is so goddamn annoying sometimes but I don't like how everyone else is calling her a poser because she really isn't being a poser and fuck. And now Dereck and Jimmy are blaming Jessica for getting Ashley fired when its Ashley's fault to begin with. lol. like I said Drama. Oh and Eddie broke up with Tabby... she was all depressed today. I have little freshman girls crawling all over me. I think I'm going to encourage it. Be a []D [] []\[]/[] []D. lol. If they only knew... if they only fucking knew...
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